The one that got away

I screw up, yea. Fucking screwed up like N times. and N times of apologize, suck rite? yea, i know that.
No one deserved me when i cant even treat ones right. I duno, maybe.. this is the way .

dedicate to her and had amend the lyrics for her.


The one that got away :


summer after high school when we first met,
make up in our mustang to radiohead
and on my 21st birthday
we got that chain bolster (named pinky & bluey)
used to steal my parents' liquor
and climb to the roof
talk about our future like we had a clue
never plan that one day i'd be loosing you.


And in another life
u would be my girl
we keep all our promises be us against the world
And in other life
i would make you stay
so i dont have to say you were the one that got away
the one that got away.


U were juliet , i was Johnny cash
never one we got the other we made a pact
sometimes when i miss you i put those records on
someone said you had ur bolster removed
i saw you down town singing the blues
its time to face the music 
i no longer your muse


And in another life
u would be my girl
we keep full of promises be us against the world
And in another life
i would make you stay
so i dont have to say you were the one that got away
the one that got away


All these money can't buy me a time machine (NO)
cant replace you with a million ring
i shoulda told you what you really meant to me
and now i pay the price.




I miss you i really do

What makes you beautiful

This is better than the original ONE DIRECTION ;)

- Jason Chen -

You're insecure,
Don't know what for,
You're turning heads when you walk through the door,
Don't need make-up,
To cover up,
Being the way that you are is enough,

Everyone else in the room can see it,
Everyone else but you,

Baby you light up my world like nobody else,
The way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed,
But when you smile at the ground it ain't hard to tell,
You don't know,
Oh oh,
You don't know you're beautiful,
If only you saw what I can see,
You'll understand why I want you so desperately,
Right now I'm looking at you and I can't believe,
You don't know,
Oh oh,
You don't know you're beautiful,
Oh oh,
That's what makes you beautiful

So c-come on,
You got it wrong,
To prove I'm right,
I put it in a song,
I don't know why,
You're being shy,
And turn away when I look into your eye eye eyes,

Everyone else in the room can see it,
Everyone else but you,

Baby you light up my world like nobody else,
The way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed,
But when you smile at the ground it ain't hard to tell,
You don't know,
Oh oh,
You don't know you're beautiful,
If only you saw what I can see,
You'll understand why I want you so desperately,
Right now I'm looking at you and I can't believe,
You don't know,
Oh oh,
You don't know you're beautiful,
Oh oh,
That's what makes you beautiful

Na Na Na Na Na Na Naaa,
Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na [x2]

Baby you light up my world like nobody else,
The way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed,
But when you smile at the ground it ain't hard to tell,
You don't know,
Oh oh,
You don't know you're beautiful,

Baby you light up my world like nobody else,
The way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed,
But when you smile at the ground it ain't hard to tell,
You don't know,
Oh oh,
You don't know you're beautiful (Oh),
If only you saw what I can see,
You'll understand why I want you so desperately (Desperately),
Right now I'm looking at you and I can't believe,
You don't know,
Oh oh,
You don't know you're beautiful,
Oh oh,
You don't know you're beautiful,
Oh oh,

That's what makes you beautiful

Dear baby girl

Dear baby girl,


this is a msg  for you. Recently we had a serious quarrel, and i almost lost you when you decide to leave.
i miss us, i really miss us. miss the way we use to be.i know we arent the perfect match, attitude and opinion we having serious conflict, we're sweet on the outside, but rotten inside. im so sorry u had to go thru with all these problems. This ain't i want either.


Do u still remember how we know each other? i remember clearly . "i know you, your name is amanda" this is my 1st word to u. hah, it simple and yet funny that i had stop u from introduce. From that day, we train, we overnite in the same house and the best part you slept beside me after i just knew you for 2nd day in training camp.


That moment, i had no intention on you, lol. Somehow this is fate? U've been my love now for 10months.
An aint long nor short duration, how did we passed for this 10months? We started to get involve in each other life, started to control each other and strictly forbid each other, these matter getting us worst and far apart.
Dear i had to tell you im sorry, i had lead you to this, i had started all of this, and i dont know how to make things back to old ways and make it right anymore.


Al l i can say is that i love you , is really much and lot. Actually I really cant imagine how would my life would be without you. I had used to having you all around the time. We eat together, sleep together, play together, movie together.......and lot. How can i erase all these memory? Teach me how can i let you go since i had long enough to hold ur hand almost for 24hours every day. I know i wont lost you by now but someday somehow when it time i had to let you go. Still, this moment havent reach and yet we alrd had great fight. Each time we quarrel, we are more far apart. I miss you, i really miss you lot that you cant imagine.


What should i do to make you love me more and make things right?


 Your sincerly,
                                                                                                                                         beloved
                                                                                                                                       Vannez chuah

Saturday Date 2012

This morning when i wake up it alrdy 2pm.
 I dont get a nice feeling to anything, something empty. 
supposed having a date at 3pm/4pm, but something screw up.
here we are, quarrel again. FML. This time situation getting intense and serious, guess what? "breakup"
yea, we did. so? skip skip skip.... i manage to save our relation. sigh, i really dont like what had happen.


After settle down, we stick back to our date, we went to 1st avenue shoes point to look for shoes, cause somebody had ruin her sister shoes -__- but we fail to find around 1st ave, then we head to new world park, fail too. At last we went to gurney, still fail. gwad! wat a luck. But then something catch our eyes, we manage to find the shoes marbles at bracelet store, hahaha! We bought one of the bracelet that have a "mickey" design, too bad i had too pluck off "mickey" side ears to repair the damn shoe. -_____- 
And is success ;D still the bracelet use able.

After that, we went for night movie "The Women In Black" by Daniel Radcliffe
gosh, what a very nice movie that scared the shit out of me LOL.
Guys, seriously go check out this movie ;))
btw my next stop for haunted movie will be "devil inside"

        


Fuck yeah, praise me for my guts, cause i will watch it at MIDNIGHT

ohyea, since i don't know how to spend this stupid government money :


I use it to buy this :

     Disney bottle xD this is a gift for her.

   and this new wireless mouse x)) for myself. teehee !

that all, adios, and goodnight. ;)

2012 1st post

hello guys. blog been dead for so long. Kindly busying for lot of stuff.
shud keep update make it more alive and more readers. LOL


It been 3months, okay, u know what, i cant write any nicee post now,
i need wreak out my anger, gosh. am deeply frustrated.
my mind stuck, emotional out of control, and fucking depressed.




there, and kindly fucking insane now! all i can think is shout out loud :
WHAT THE FUCK 
FUCK fuck fuck fuck.


what the fuck u want from me?!
i hate quarreling. a tiny minnie miney lil' things we can dig out and quarrel.
i hate it, i really hate it!
STOP it, gaaaaaaaaaaaaah!


i'm aint normal, u ain't normal either, so there's nothing we can have a normal couple life u see.
U such a honey, u attract,lure any single insect around you. fuck it. zzz
RT "how i wish to kill all guys who talk to you"


okay that it, just yelled out my thought,
sorry for the random post and annoying.


thanks.